My Writings

The Water Monkey

Now that I am whole, do you understand me? Now, is it all clearer – the water of my lake? Take a rock, skip it across the surface of my world. You cannot hurt me. Now, there is only a calm goodbye, there is only forgiveness, there is only understanding, only quiet. Do my words […]

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A Time to Be

I used to encircle myself with the memories of my closest ones, but they were not my memories. I heard stories about the past, I imagined how life must have been – in the time before I was conscious, in the time before I myself acted. I was nursed with stories, fables, legends. Family. Actors […]

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The World at Your Feet

To see the world in vivid color. To see clearly. To know. To not let life remain a metaphor for change and movement, but to live it. To be animated by it. A girl grabbing you by the hand, pulling you into the raging dance. Stepping into the roaring river, hardly finding your balance, crossing […]

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The Gift of Strength

Stop. Listen. Can you hear how different the melody is? Do you notice that it has changed? After so long, an unfamiliar tune. Ah, no, I must have heard it, now it sounds familiar, nearer than a mother’s milk, now it is mine, and then – it changes. Give me silence, that music terrifies me. […]

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Father

Father, there is an ocean between us. Forgive me, father, for I have failed you. To drink that ocean so that I can walk across its thorny bed, and ride beside your mind. Perhaps, in a world better than ours, that is not necessary. Perhaps there exists a place where father and son can split […]

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Mother – Part II

When I was a child, Mother took me to see the bones of great kings, their weapons, their gold, their slaves and wives – slain in a time of wine and ritualistic sex, along their horses – still carrying them into battle, in the afterlife. You must be one of those kings, Mother said. That […]

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Into Flight

And yet another challenge. I will have to move swiftly now, covered in the darkness of the world, lifting my body with my two hands, running like a jaguar, to the spirit world, to grasp a trinket of its wisdom, and to race back again. The world around me crumbles, my vision is blinded only […]

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The Fever of Life

Death, sweet release. One cannot escape hell by standing still. So I ran without direction, and the earth cracked underneath my feet, rifts opening like wounds, and mountains of pain rising above me. Horizons stretched even further now, out of reach, there is no escape. Instead, Salvation must be earned. Do you realize, seeker, the […]

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The Crown

Unfamiliar power overwhelms me. A crown has been placed on my head. Now, my body and spirit are mine no longer, but they belong to the world. My hands carry out His work, my eyes survey His world for trouble, ready to descend and kill. My heart has housed his songs, and I don’t have […]

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Force of Will

I look back at my recent past. In that time, I decided to face fear. As the feet of my cosmic Mother shook the ground around me, I remained undisturbed, silent. Waiting for the mind killer near the swamp. Soon its terrible mouth rises to the surface, and I must enter. I am still as […]